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My dowsing experiences are not limited to the outdoors, and I often find myself curious about my living space and other indoor spaces I visit.

After my trip to England last summer, I came home to practice the techniques that Hamish Miller had taught us.  I’m so grateful to have had the opportunity to meet and work with him.  We will miss Hamish’s physical presence in our world, but I’m quite sure he is doing his work from the non-physical perspective now.

When I discovered that I could detect energy hotspots, currents of Earth energy and other energetic phenomena, I was pretty excited.  That quickly became part of my work with clients who hired me to do garden consultations and workshops.  So I have gone to various gardens and outdoor spaces to dowse and read the energy.  It’s pretty fascinating to me that there are “hotspots” here and there; some present with masculine or feminine energy; and some are connected to certain plants.  Trees seem to co-create energy spots with the Earth, while other spots are co-created by people who use their space with reverence for the land.

The same is true for indoor spaces as well.  I’ve dowsed about six very active and energetic spots in my house.  There’s a fairly large spot where my altar is and where I meditate every day.  There’s a spot right at the place where I set my massage table up to do healing work.  And one where my hibiscus shrub is growing.  All of these spots appear in places where positive things going on, healing, meditation, growing.  These energies attract or co-create these hotspots.

As fascinating as this all is, finding these spots leads to more questions about the meaning.  I do believe that this is our task to develop the skills to communicate with the Earth in her terms.  There’s a whole different level of communication that happens on the energetic and unseen level.  We are needing to learn to decode the Earth’s energetic language, but first we have to open to experiencing it.

During one of my metaphysical classes this winter, I decided to dowse the energy of the space we were using.  About half way through this thirteen-week class, I got the strong sense that I should dowse the space to see what might be happening. I dowsed, asking if there were any hotspots and patterns. Sure enough something presented itself.  I had a student dowse along with me and we kept finding a couple of hotspots and then a current that seemed to keep moving on us as we dowsed the room.  We both were perplexed by the movement as it really seemed to be playing with us.  So we mapped out the pattern with masking tape on the floor, and then sketched the pattern on paper.

I know for sure from previous experience and teaching that ceremony and rituals attract energy.  Having participated in ceremonies in many sacred places, I have felt that energy.  In my class we were doing ceremony nearly every week, and so it was not a surprise that we had some interesting energy presenting itself.  But we had not expected it to be so interactive.

We let this information and energy just be as we proceeded on with the classes, but I decided that we would re-dowse that energy on the last meeting.  So fast forward by about six or seven weeks to April 11th.  I was attending the Earth Spirit Conference once again.  Our closing speaker is one of my favorites, Jude Currivan.  Jude is an internationally known, author, healer and cosmologist and I’ve enjoyed her presentations at this conference several times.  My experience is that she weaves together all of the topics, threads and themes of the entire event,  and sows in her perspectives on what is going on energetically, astrologically and globally.  I always come away feeling very moved and inspired by her.

So this weekend was very inspiring and Jude once again wove a magical tapestry to help us bring these incredible concepts together.  I was particularly interested in what Jude had to say about the major ley lines of male and female energy and her work with them.  In her work she has identified a third major ley line that is just now revealing itself as the divine child.  I had actually heard this before, but for some reason, it pulled me in this time.

Then all of a sudden it hit me, right in the third eye, that this divine child energy was indeed what we were attracting into our classroom.  Again this made so much sense, as having worked with this group of wonderful women, I witnessed them connecting with and allowing their inner maiden selves to come out and play.  At times we were all giggly little pre-pubescent girls, allowing our silliness and joy to run amuck. No wonder divine child energy would be attracted to that.

Jude also mentioned that this energy line tended to roam around, sometimes wandering off, then coming back to the other two lines, in very playful and random ways. That just affirmed my recollection of this line moving in very playful ways as we dowsed it.

I admit that I was already convinced about this being exactly what we had going on in the classroom. So I went to class that next evening with my dowsing rods.  Once again I dowsed hotspots, and had a sense of the energy having expanded in some way.  The area where the current was entering the room had shifted and the whole patterns seemed bigger and more defined to me.  I asked one of my students to dowse with me, and she picked up very similar results.  This pattern had expanded and widened, and had become a more defined spiral within the room.  The place where it entered the room had shifted and become much wider.  The two hotspots were still in the same places but were now presenting with male and female energies, respectively.  Once again we mapped the pattern with masking tape and sketched out the pattern.  We all knew that energy was being raised in our ceremonies and meditations over the course of our thirteen weeks, but this was another level to add to our experience together.  It served as affirmation of being joined by that d,ivine presence we were calling upon during our ceremonies.

We are truly babes in the woods in terms of understanding what all of this means; the mystery of this energetic language is mind-blowing.  I’ve heard something similar from Hamish last summer, and he had been dowsing with these energies for years and still found many mysteries to them.  I do have a deep sense of this being part of our awakening to the Earth’s consciousness (as well as raising our own consciousness).  It’s so important to be in right relationship with the Earth now.  We are slowly waking to see the destruction we have caused upon the planet, but we haven’t quite gotten the concept that this planet is a living being.

We have been seeing some extreme examples of our planet’s powers of destruction.  The numerous recent earthquakes, volcanic eruptions, flooding, mining accidents, and even animal attacks are reminders that our Earth is really in control of things, and we are just guests, borrowing Her resources.  Being in right relationship with Her is not just about going green, or working to greatly reduce our carbon footprint, but also very much about acknowledging that we are not the only beings upon the planet, and that the Earth herself is a great living being.  She needs us, but we need Her more.

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I’ve spent a good deal of this summer dowsing.  This is a direct result of my journey to Cornwall and the honor of meeting and working with Hamish and Ba Miller.  HamishMiller

Hamish is an author, dowser and blacksmith; and a true impish and wise character.  Two years ago, upon returning from my first journey to the UK into the Sacred Sites and crop circles, I  had the opportunity to read Hamish’s first book “The Sun and the Serpent” co-authored with Paul Broadhurst.  This was a fascinating account of their trek from the west side of England to the east as Hamish dowsed and mapped the Michael and Mary ley lines.   Along their way they had adventures and explorations of the sacred sites that connect with these ancient Earth energy currents.  I was hooked on England and the sacred mysteries and reading this book only anchored me more deeply into the study.

So I was elated to hear that our tour would include three days of working with Hamish and Ba in the sacred sites of Cornwall.  I have been dowsing for a long, long time, but only recently have I become comfortable with the use of L-rods.  It’s because I ordered a custom set of L-rods from Hamish by mail last year.  As a blacksmith, he makes Dowsing rods and measures one’s hands to make these rods a custom fit.  When I received my set last year, I could tell right away they were special.  Prior to that I had never been able to find L-rods, Y-rods or even a pendulum that I was truly comfortable with.  But these are specially crafted and that they have flat handles makes it easy for me to determine their direction and pull.

So I began using them immediately.  Mostly I have used them to dowse the energy field of my clients.  This helps me determine or confirm what I am feeling in their auras.  It also gives my clients a visible measurement of their own energy field.  Since I dowse before and after a session, both the client and I can have a measure of how much the auric field has changed as a result of the energy work I did.  It is quite an amazing thing.  But there is so much more to dowsing…

During our time with Hamish we had the opportunity to do a lot of dowsing of the Michael, Mary, Apollo and Athena ley lines.  As we wandered through ancient sites and dowsed their energy, followed the ley lines and connected with the Earth, we got a deeper sense of this very dynamic energy system the Earth has.  Hamish showed us various aspects of energy such as geometric patterns that could be dowsed and identified in various ways and he talked about how this energy system can change and fluctuate.  This makes sense as this is after all a living being, our Mother Earth.

Upon returning home, I began to dowse in a new way and for new things.  My first opportunity was to dowse my own home.  I remembered that when we visited Hamish and Ba in their home, he showed us an energy hotspot or vortex right in his living room.  He demonstrated how to dowse for such a thing and showed that it had radials of energy emanating out from it.  It’s a spot that can be used for healing and often seems to relax people to the point of dozing off.

So I came home curious and at the first opportunity, I began dowsing around my home.  I live in a modest two bedroom flat and so I haven’t got a lot of spaciousness, but what I have I keep pretty uncluttered.  Here is what I found…

In the living room I dowsed one Earth energy hotspot located in a corner of the room where a rather large Hibiscus tree resides.  The current seems to be feminine energy in a column coming up from the Earth and is produced in co-creation with this tree.  Another hotspot was located nearer to the middle of the living room, but off to one side.  This particular spot features a double spiral of energies, both male and female, which when I stand upon I can feel in my own body.  Just as I had experienced in Cornwall, I can locate a hotspot through dowsing, connect with it physically by standing in it, and feel the sensation of energy flowing into my body from the spot.

I discovered more energy in my healing space  where a largish hotspot was located off to the side of the room.  This area is where I set up my massage table to do my healing work on people.  The rods indicated to me that this is not an Earth energy current, but comes from Cosmic energy above and has been created as a result of me doing energy healing within this space.  This spot is diagonally aligned with the energy column at the Hibiscus tree on the opposite corner of the house. I’m not sure if that is significant, but it seemed interesting to me.  Another very small spot located right over my desk seemed to be coming up from the Earth and had a six-pointed star pattern associated with it.

I found a vortex in my bedroom off to one side.  This is a spiraling column of balanced masculine and feminine energy.  It is about five to six feet in diameter and encompasses both my bed and my dog’s.  Although I used the L-rods to locate and define these hotspots, I do occasionally use a pendulum to check on spirals of energy.  The pendulum showed a very wide clockwise spin on this spot.  It also indicates a lot of support for health and sleep.  I located a second energetic spot in the corner where my personal altar and meditation chair sit.  This is a pie-shaped column of energy.  I asked if it had been here before I moved in and that was confirmed, although the rods indicated it has gotten bigger as a result of my own spiritual practices and meditations in that area.  This also indicated a linking of Earth and Heaven energies through this column.  I also found circles and orbs of Light in this area.  The orbs seem to be attracted to my work here.

These are the highlights of what I have found in my home. I know these energies change, just as Hamish told us.  I attempted to re-dowse the large hotspot in my healing space during a full moon. I could not find it.  Moon phases and eclipses seem to have an effect on these energy spots.  Two days after that full moon I did find that energy spot and it was as I had done the first time.

The Earth has its own patterns, language and energy.  Just as we have blood vessels carrying our life blood throughout our bodies, so the Earth has precious energy flowing along currents and ley lines.  Along the various Earth energy currents and ley lines you can find some amazing energetic spots, many of which are healing spaces.  Once we learn how to tune into such places, even in our own backyards, we can attune to a deeper relationship with the Earth herself.

Attuning to that deeper relationship means we can connect with the Earth physically and energetically.  We can literally attune our vibrational frequencies with that of the Earth’s.  I believe this is how we once lived on Earth, in perfect alignment and attunement with Her.  We may not have had the advanced language we have now, but I think we probably understood the Earth’s energetic language.  Our vibrational frequencies were the same as the Earth’s.  Along the path of our evolution we have lost that vital connection, but it seems like more and more we are all finally waking up to the fact that we have to get back into alignment.  The Earth has her own language that we can only access directly through genuine curiosity, respect and stillness.  We just have to learn how to tune in by slowing down and becoming still.

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Is anyone truly comfortable with their own vulnerability?  Even the most “enlightened” people are often faced with the discomfort of realizing their own vulnerability from time to time.

 

During my journey this past month, I faced that paradox myself.  I’ve certainly faced this lesson many times before in my life and to some extent, I knew that the issue of my vulnerability would be present during my journey.  I just didn’t realize that it would be a gift to others to share that with them, nor did I realize that I would continue to confront the lessons upon my return.

 

When I travel, I’m a fish out of water.  Being blind has its challenges, but I strive not to allow them to be limitations.  If I want to do something, I try to find ways of accomplishing this.  I also believe in the process of manifesting and attracting what I want through intention and right alignment.  All fancy terms that sound great, but this is a process that works, as long as I don’t get in my own way.  And I do get in my own way frequently.

 

So on this journey, I was very blessed to be accompanied by my friend Becky.  Becky and I have known each other for quite a few years, but we’ve never traveled together.  What a brave woman.  As it turns out Becky is as patient as the day is long; much more patient with me than I am with myself.  She was a gift to travel with and we enjoyed ourselves immensely.

 

But there were 11 others on this journey with us, including our friends leading the Journey, Glenn and Cameron.  Since I’ve traveled with them before, it was quite easy to put my faith and trust in their hands as they are friends, they know me and have a sense of my “limitations.”  I have to give them huge credit for not only allowing me to journey with them, but to also take me to some of the more rugged sacred sites we visited.  I am very aware that many people in their place would not have done this out of fear for my safety, and their own liability.  But that isn’t who Glenn and Cameron are, and it’s not what Sacred Britain is all about.  And still there were 9 others in our group who if not actually physically guided and supported me, held the energy of all of us being together on this pilgrimage.

 

Most of the time, I had only a name of a place we were to visit, and no real knowledge of the terrain I would be hiking over.  That’s a gift to be able to put my trust in Glenn and Cameron to guide all of us with our various needs.  So when I came upon rough terrain, there was always someone- usually several people- there to give me a hand.

 

The first time I encountered such a spot in the journey, I found myself flanked by 2 of our guys on either side of me, and Cameron literally guiding my feet over rocks and boulders to get to a beach.  That was when I began having my first epiphanies about surrendering.  It was not just about surrendering my physical being to the journey, but also my emotional being as well.

 

The next day the group met after breakfast to have a check in, which was a brilliant idea.  When I had the opportunity, I shared my sense of that moment of being able to allow people to help me and surrender myself to it.  I was touched by the response I received from my fellow travelers who all chimed in to let me know that it was a gift for them to not only help me, but that I would allow myself to be vulnerable with them.

 

That’s been such a tough thing for me to let into my consciousness.  I’ve heard this message in various ways throughout my lifetime, but this time I couldn’t ignore it nor push it away.  I had to acknowledge it and begin to let it sink in.  Still working on that one.

 

At home I am as independent as I can be and I’m pretty proud of that independence.  But as a person without sight, I have to ask for help with the various tasks that most folks take for granted.  I face that on a daily basis, and have figured out how to negotiate through that in my world.  It’s so important to me that I maintain a balance of giving and receiving with my friends who support me.  I am very insistent with myself about giving back in some small ways, so that I feel like I’m not taking advantage of anyone.  That’s old programming that can get me into trouble with myself at times.  But there is merit to balance.  I just forget that sometimes balance and giving back isn’t what I think it is.

 

So when my friends on the journey say to me, this is a gift for us to help you; I have to acknowledge their experience of me.  And by that I have a sense of being “seen.”  It’s not the sense of physical vulnerability that is so terrifying, it’s the emotional vulnerability of allowing yourself to be seen in a vulnerable way.  Letting someone see your shadows, or your perceptions of your shadows, is truly daunting.  And yet, when it happened to me on this journey, I felt completely contained by the support and love of these friends.

 

That seems to be just the beginning for this part of my lesson.  I no longer have that container around me, although our group will remain connected in someway.  But in my ordinary life, there will be new dimensions of this lesson to explore.  I can’t say that I’m thrilled to take this on with open arms, but I know the value of such deep inner work.  I also know that my container of support is within me, with my connection to Divine Source and I will be tapping into the source to guide me.

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N. C. Wyeth, "Sword Excalibur Rises From the Lake"I’ve returned from what was a most magical trip to Cornwall England.  Ten days of magical connections, experiences and spiritual growth.  As I ease back into my mundane life in Vermont, friends, loved ones and curious acquaintances want to know what it was all about.  Oh how I resist the sharing!  A difficult thing to admit as the clarity of this journey is about returning to share some of what I gathered there.  But as I knew that metamorphosis would take place, I find that my new wings are tender and unsteady still.

As we drove away from Cornwall and toward London to travel back home, I found myself experiencing a deep sadness at leaving this magical place.  That was a surprise to me, as I observed this feeling, and I realized how deeply the people, experiences and landscape of the sacred sites had penetrated me.  It’s so hard to describe the depth and meaning of this journey and so I don’t want to even try.  All I have been able to do is give brief snapshots and descriptors of some of the places and experiences I had.  But I know that for those who want to know everything, I can only give them a surface experience.  However, this won’t stop me from writing about the journey.

One of the first and most touching experiences I had was our first stop in Cornwall at Dozmary Pool.  This site is a tiny body of water in the middle of farmland and is thought to be the place where Nineveh, the Lady of the Lake gave Excalibur to King Arthur.  Here we gathered as a group of thirteen travelers to connect with the Lady and ask for our own personal Excalibur on the journey.

It was a sacred time to meditate and connect with the Lady, who  was quite willing to communicate with me.  As I stood on the shore, I was told that this was a place of stillness and peace; that no one who was enraged, filled with hate or anger could come to the Lady; only those who sought the healing peace of stillness would be welcomed by her.  To all others she sleeps.  Once she is called upon, she bestows the gifts of healing and stillness.  She showed me several stones to take with me on my journey.  But when it came to asking for a gift from her, I simply had to surrender as I didn’t know what to ask, nor what my personal Excalibur would represent to me.  As often is the case, surrendering to the higher will serves in the highest way.  She told me that this was the beginning of an important journey and that I could connect with her in my meditation at any time.  The ceremony and meditation there was profound, but I wouldn’t recognize that until later in the journey.

In our ceremony, led by Glenn and Cameron Broughton, the story of Excalibur was briefly recaptured.  Glenn explained to us that Lady Nineveh had been one of the High Priestesses of Avalon, but had come to this area of Cornwall to retire into the landscape.  Arthur had pulled the sword from the stone, but that sword was not the Excalibur.  Instead the sword in the stone was a test of Arthur’s worthiness.  After Arthur took that sword Merlin brought him to Cornwall to the Lady of the Lake.

When she gave Arthur the sword she said that it was the most powerful sword in England and would cut through stone and iron, but she went on to tell Arthur that Excalibur’s real power lay in its scabbard.  For the scabbard would protect Arthur at all times.  It was only when the scabbard slipped from Arthur in his battle with Mordred, that Arthur was fatally wounded.  Thus wove the beginning threads of our quest for the Sacred feminine and Sacred Masculine within the landscape of Cornwall and within ourselves.

My most precious gift was the Excalibur of understanding and embracing the Sacred Masculine.  It has been a part of my deeply personal and spiritual journey to heal my understanding of the Sacred Masculine and bring it into alignment within myself.

As I walked, hiked, climbed and scrambled up and down the various places we visited, I learned deep lessons of surrender.  I was profoundly moved by my fellow travelers who volunteered with open hearts, hands and minds to assist me through some very challenging places.

I was also gifted with witnessing one of my travelers opening to his Sacred Feminine as we both walked, danced and dowsed our way through the Michael, Mary, Athena and Apollo ley lines that run through the land.  What a gift to see this unfolding in someone you admire and respect while simultaneously experiencing the opening within yourself.  So my heart is filled with gratitude for that witnessing and for the experience within myself.

Many blessings to all of my fellow travelers as we ease our way back into our lives, knowing that we have been profoundly changed and have work to do to share the seeds we have been gifted with.

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I’m about to embark on my second journey to sacred Britain.  I feel extremely blessed to be able to go.  To be able to enter Stonehenge and participate in a sacred ceremony inside this potent place a second time in my life seems astonishing to me.

 

This year’s trek, Stonehenge to Cornwall, will be an entirely new and different experience than my first visit to the sacred sites and crop circles of Wiltshire.  I do know that it will be a magical and transformative journey.

 

As I prepared for this journey, I noticed a particular symbol that kept appearing in my life.  It started when I made a new piece of jewelry for myself that is a woman’s face with a butterfly superimposed over her face. I’ve been fascinated by butterflies since I was a child back in the day when bugs were non-threatening and interesting creatures to me.  How do we develop that squeamishness in adulthood that sends us fleeing from these tiny beings?

 

I think every child should witness the magic of the butterfly.  I remember capturing live caterpillars, making habitats for them in shoe boxes lined with milkweed, and watching them spin their cocoons.  Then when they emerged from their cocoon as the new Monarch butterfly, we would take them very carefully outside into the sun and let them go free.  What a miracle for us to see such a dramatic transformation.

 

butterfly_emerge1Butterflies are genuine symbols of transformation and freedom.  We can be a caterpillar that spins a cocoon.  Sometimes I feel like I want to be in a cocoon; perhaps my comfort zone, but I cannot stay there too long.  That’s not the way of things and change is truly constant.

 

So as weeks went by and I found myself buying a couple of really pretty shirts for the trip that oddly enough, had butterflies on them.  I began to think, well actually I already knew, this trip would be transformational in some manner. But I felt I was being affirmed, and called upon to open and embrace this opportunity.

 

Now I begin to wonder about the words transformation and metamorphosis and here’s what I’ve come to understand:

 According to the dictionary, the word “transformation” is defined as the act of changing in form or shape or appearance.  But “metamorphosis” is defined as a complete change of physical form or substance especially as by magic or witchcraft.  

 

While transformation happens all the time, I am much more drawn to the term metamorphosis, as it implies that I might have some power to effect change in my life for myself.  Transformation is always happening, in fact sometimes I feel like we’re always in flux with it.  We are moving through life and being shaped by all of our experiences and choices along the path.  But I’m now thinking more intentionally with regard to metamorphosis and becoming that butterfly woman.

 

Metamorphosis is about experiencing an intentional death, in order to emerge as the butterfly that you truly are.  That caterpillar has a short existence in its form that is very much Earth-bound.  Its natural cycle is to live and seek nourishment and then to settle into creating its cocoon where that part of its form will cease to exist, so that the true essence will emerge and take flight.  The caterpillar form no longer serves this being, and so that form is shed and a new form of this same Divine being is created.  What a beautiful example for us.  What more perfect lesson could there be for us?

 

I get the word “transformation” from my angel cards a lot.  Many times during the past week in fact,  leading up to this trip.  Now I’m thinking I might add the word “metamorphosis” to this deck to illustrate this deeper understanding.  My trip is one adventure in my immediate course, but butterfly woman wants to emerge from the cocoon into the sunlight.

 

Note:  I’m away for the next couple of weeks.  Although I’ll be journaling quite a lot, I will not be online.  So you’ll have to wait a bit before the next post.  Love and blessings until then.

 

Butterfly Woman

 

Graphic credits: http://www.dancingshakina.com/butterfly_woman_exp.jpg

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Since this will be my first official blog entry ever, I’ll begin with something simple and timely.  My name is Gwendolyn, although many of my friends and loved ones have only known me as Gwen, until recently.  Here’s the story.

 

I was born as Gwen.  My father was from Wales and my mother was very much a New England Yankee.  As the story goes, my Dad had wanted to name me Gwendolyn, among several very Welsh names, but Mom was wanting something a bit more American.  So Gwen was a good compromise.  Even so it was a bit different and there was the inevitable teasing at school, but I grew to like my name.

 

Now all of a sudden in my mid 40’s here I am making a change.  I could simply say it’s part of my mid-life crisis, but that just wouldn’t do.  As a point of fact, I hate pasting my experiences into a box- any easy answer that applies to everyone.  Life just isn’t that black and white and I’m not a fan of applying labels or boxes to people’s individual experiences.  You can blame an emotional outburst on PMS, but there’s real and deep stuff behind it that deserves honor and examination.  It’s terribly invalidating and fails to honor this process we call life. 


This change for me comes in my mid-life stage and it may mark a very personal part of my story.  During the past two years, I’ve had the honor of going over to Britain to explore the spiritual connection I’ve always felt from this place.  I’ve also made dear friends with Glenn and Cameron Broughton, of Sacred Britain Tours.  My feelings for the British isles run deep, and I resonate with the ancient history of the sacred sites there.  Whether this name change is from the connection to the British Isles, or to a shifting in the stage of my life, I cannot explain what specifically inspired me to do so.  I’ve had a few friends call me Gwendolyn in passing from time to time but I never thought about it being mine.  All of a sudden something has connected me with the energy of this name.   

 

It came very clear to me while I attended the Earth Spirit Conference, and it was really not triggered by any one speaker, although There were many Brits speaking there.  I cannot articulate what spurred this on, other than to say it was such a deep heart-knowing that presented itself to me.  Perhaps it was a whisper from my inner source, that resonated in my being like the sound of thunder.

 

I considered ignoring this urge and going along just the way things had been, but I knew that wouldn’t work.  For anyone who has experienced spirit working in your life, you know that spirit works sometimes in strange and rather insistent ways.  And if a new path opens to you, spirit won’t let you alone until you get it.  Sometimes it’s a gentle nudge and sometimes, if you’re not listening, it’s a cosmic baseball bat upside the head.  I’ve had those, they hurt.  I’m trying to cultivate deep listening skills so as to avoid those baseball bats.

 

So I thought about it, this re-naming, and it just seemed to feel right.  I really like the name Gwendolyn and for whatever reason it feels like it fits me now.  So I sat down and wrote an email to all my friends.  Their responses were mostly supportive but I could feel a tiny little sense of “What do you mean, I have to remember to call you Gwendolyn now?”  So I endeavor to patiently remind them, and sometimes they remind me.

 

Okay, it’s a personal growth thing, it’s a spiritual thing and it’s a mid-life thing.  Labels really don’t convey the depth of meaning it has for me.  So often I feel like I need to express what I’m experiencing spiritually, but the process of expression in words is elusive.  It seems that spirit defies description, transcends the physical and cannot be housed in a box.  There is more to a name than just a label.

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